Wow what a week this has been! The biggest thing on my mind right now is all about ACTION. I have spent a long time focusing on the negatives in my life and taking NO ACTION. I would spend hours contemplating life and feeling sorry for myself. When I am in that state of mind not only am I having my own "pity party" but I am more than likely eating my brains out. I really never needed a reason to eat in the past. It didn't matter if I was happy, sad, angry, lonely or whatever emotion I was having my reaction was to eat no matter what was going on.
That is how I learned how to cope with life. I started self-medicating with food when I was 12 years old when my mother died having battled with breast cancer. Nobody in my family really knew how to deal with me or what to do with me. My family was all about food. From that point on all my coping mechanisms were to go for the food. Then when I was about 15 I started smoking and then I added that to my list of "coping mechanisms." Then somewhere along the line I picked up overspending. For all these years I have used those 3 addictions at times by themselves and sometimes all three together.
This is the first time in my life I am not using any of those addictions to cope with life. I am so grateful for that. However I am dealing with the wreckage that those addictions have created in my life today. I am working with the issues that I have created and they have effected other people that I love in my life. I know that with each day I can create a new life for myself. I cannot go and change the past. I also can't dwell on what I have done nor can I sit here and contemplate the future. It's high time that I just take the action that I desire. Which is exactly what I am now doing. I have started in a pilot program with the nutritional company I am working with to learn how to do more marketing with the Internet. I have a table at an event this Friday to promote the same nutritional products.
Where I have to be careful though is not to overwhelm myself. My pattern in the past when I started feeling good again was to over commit and then get totally overwhelmed. Then when I am so full of anxiety because I get myself in a turmoil I just quit everything. I then return to my cave and begin the pattern of isolation and eating all over again. The difference this time is I am conscious of the fact and am actually vocalizing the truth! I also get to fit in going to the gym which is my medicine and also a part of my new career!! I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for in my life. I have a lot of awesome people in my life that are such a great support and I can also support them back. There are some people that I have met on some of the social networks that I have never met before in person or even talked to on the phone but are wonderful people and I am better for having met them.
It feels so good to finally feel good not only physically but also in my mind and spirit. Although these are some of the most challenging times of my life. I also feel the most hopeful that I have ever felt before and I can actually visualize myself in my life's dreams. What I am committing to myself for this week is to finish the homework that I have been assigned from the marketing program I am involved and also sitting down to write very specific long and short term goals. Then to post them all over the place as a constant reminder of what I am creating. I am also not paying attention to all the negativity in the press and news. I am so tired of all the fear that is out there in the universe. I am about creating love, abundance, passion, and all the possibilities that exist. I am committed to being part of the positive change. You do the same thing!!
My message to all of you is take action on what is important and don't think about it. Trust the process, let go and it will happen. It's time for all of us to focus on the positives and leave the negatives out of the space.
What are you committing to this week? What positive change are you going to create this week in the world? What actions are you committing? What are your goals and dreams? I'd love to hear what is on your minds as well.
I heard an incredible motivational speaker this past Sunday and he challenged us to do something nice for someone every single day. I challenge all of you to do the same thing.
Hugs to all of you!!